This is how I feel...

So my friend Nicky had this song in his profile the other day, and I realized tonight that it is really how I feel right now, but it makes me sad because I know that I can never go home.  For some reason, this song reminds me of my mom and my dad, and my brother and sister and the times that we used to have...going on road trips with Johnny, and playing campout in the backyard with Crissi, it made me think of my mom and the ways that we used to laugh and always had a goodtime because she was everything to me, and my dad because he is still the main pillar in my life, nobody should ever have to take that much shit from one person, but he did and we still get along....but it makes me so sad, that I remember those days, and I think that it would be so nice to be eight again, I realize that I wouldn't be the person I am today without the experiences that I've had in the last sixteen years, but I have to wonder what could have been had we all stayed together.  I think that is my one wish if i were to ever find a genie, is just to be close to my family again, it has been far too long...really...I just want to go home...

"Home"
Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Babe I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
'Cause I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
That this is not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

YAY for friends putting me in a good mood...

Ok so now I have some time on my hands and I think it's time to write the flaky people blog.  Mainly because I'm rather annoyed right now, but I do have the ninth season of Friends playing in the background so that makes me happy.  I just put a new picture of Hanna in the picture frame, she's adorable so that makes me a little sad, I miss the kids already, and I've only been back for a day.  Kinda makes me want to forget Missoula and move back to Phoenix.  If I didn't have to finish my degree I'd be out of here.  Possibly to Phoenix but most likely I'm gonna move to New Orleans still.  That or Boston, depending on job opportunities and possibly grad schools.  I'll miss Missoula and I want to move back to this area again sometime in the next ten years but I have to get out of here for awhile again.  I love it and I hate it at the same time.....so I'm laughing my ass off at Friends right now and I am not really in the mood to write about flaky people anymore, so I guess it's just going to have to wait until I am annoyed with them again, besides it's really not worth bitching about something anyway, it never gets anything accomplished.  But I would like it known that flaky people are annoying and I'm going to ignore them from here on out, I mean I am still there as a friend and all, but the rest is out the window with em....