Things that should be said...

1) List 26-28 things that you want to say to people, but never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.
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1. I Love You (i don't tell as many people as I should)
2. I truly wish that I had never met you, I'm glad that I did, but I could have done without it.
3. I will always be completely and utterly in awe of you, there isn't a day that goes by, that I don't see you, think about you, feel your love, or miss you.
4. I would have babies with you, lots of em, really, lets do it.
5. I wish I could see you again, just to tell you the truth, you always deserved it.
6. I wish you were closer, you're gorgeous and I love you.
7. I utterly despise you, ten years later.
8. I'll miss you, for awhile, but like everyone else you'll fade.
9. Remember the night we spent at Tempe Town Lake? It was probably one of the best, most romantic nights of my life, and I'll never see you again.
10. You told me misery loves company, it was you that made me miserable.
11. I would wreck your relationship in a second if I knew I could have you for the rest of our lives.
12. You were always a better brother to me than my real one.
13. I think you're beautiful but I NEVER want to see you naked.
14. You're boring when you're sober.
15. You're all the rocks I need in my life.
16. I've always been there for you, even if you didn't know it.
17. You are still the only one on my swing.
18. It's been a year and a half and I still can't let it go.
19. I hate working with you, we have nothing in common.
20. You annoy the living hell out of me, but I love you anyway.
21. You are the best friend a person could ever have.

This was fun, I will probably think of fifty more tonight.

There's never a danger in loving too much...

Wrapping up yet another holiday weekend it's time to take a look back at the last few weeks.  Life has been pretty interesting, there've been some good times, some great times, and even a couple bad times.  However the good has far outweighed the bad, in fact it's to the point where the bad is just an insignificant speck that will be looked back upon with amused irony.  I live alone now, and I have to say that I've missed it, having not done so since moving back from Phoenix.  Although I find it a little crazy that even tho I am the only one that lives there, I have yet to have a single evening to myself....we'll call that a good thing.  My apt is completely decorated for the Christmas party coming up and I have to say that Corey, Izzie and I did an amazing job.  Now I just have to finish planning the party and getting the guest list ready.  Thanksgiving went well, altho I'm getting tired of answering questions about a certain someone.  Went over to my gram and gramps and had dinner.  Then came back to Butte and did prime rib dinner again...and then bartended till the wee hours of the morning.  It was a great day of fun and laughing and good people.  Dad and I went Christmas tree hunting Sunday,  I fell up a hill then down a hill and then on the flat, oh yeah and one more time out of the truck.  Needless to say I'm a little sore and bruised.  Howy Cwap<-- where's Spud when you need her...lol   I almost forgot to put the most important part of the weekend in here.  Sitting at the Copper Bowl with Dad and Dave Saturday after putting on a convertible top, which came out perfect I'll have you know.  Chrissy walked in and said hi, then I went over to the bowling alley to say hi to Sarah and Nicholas.  It was kind of almost a surreal little time spent with the best of old friends,  Chrissy might get what I'm hinting at but at I just want to let you both know that I love you both more every single day.  Sunday evening with Sarah and Nicholas and Kai was just as amazing and Kai is getting sooo big, and cuter every day too. 

So here's to the best of old friends that get better every day,  great times with family's, to getting the toxins out of your life, to homemade kahlua, to boxed wine, fabulous movies, new friends that make an impact in the first week, to those that I've left behind but not forgotten, to Christmas tree hunts, fond memories and old photographs, to family, to my little sister, wonderful coworkers and their families, to Holidays which get better every year, to Christmas pickles, and pickles in general, Montana, cold dreary days, SNOW, to you, to me, to things we'll accomplish, to neighbors, to warm laundry, Christmas sales, and most importantly, here's to the future and the excitement it entails...