So here goes a shout out, a dedication, a lament, a sob story, an epic love poem, etc.... whatever the fuck you want to call it I guess.
This year has been a great roller coaster of emotions...love hate friendship compassion anger sadness bitterness naivety, it has had it's ups downs lefts rights zigzags and every other in between you can think of.
This year I have made so many great memories but forgot so many others. I don't know why I do these things...for example I remember my birthday but I forgot Lisa's, I have no idea what we did, I remember St. Patty's but I almost forgot New Years, I remember the early morning hours of Valentines, but forgot the rest of the day. Maybe I wasn't supposed to remember these things, maybe I just blocked them out, I don't know.
I have felt like a great person this year, but moreso the asshole. I feel like I let down those that needed me most, took advantage of those that lent a helping hand, and forgot those mattered most.
I feel like I've made some amazing friends this year, but pushed them away at the same time because I couldn't be honest with them.
I would like to say that I achieved some goals but I haven't done shit.
So anyway, this is me, in all my grandeur (you'll notice the sarcasm here) picking up the pieces that are left, dropping a little comment about them here and there, and moreso just shouting out where there needs to be a shout. Oh and I know most of ya'll will be all " we love you blah blah balh" but sometimes I just need to get these things out, and this is one way of doing it.
And to boot, I am typing this while listening to techno remixes. So if there's a thumpa in there, that's why.....
Sarah Beth Lueck (and the lil Kai guy) - As always you rock my world, you are a thousand miles away and I still feel like you are right next door, loving me as I hope you know that I am loving you, with every ounce of my soul.
Christina Safron Marchion - I'll never be able to repay you for what you have brought into my life, and taken out of it. The ways you have enriched what was already there, and helped me nurture what was trying to break free. I will always be utterly in awe of every thing that you are. I love you.
Michael James Beasley - I have no idea why I'm using formal names, but what the hell...you'll always be Sparky. The last year hanging out with you, watching you become who you are today, has enriched my life to no end. It has been fun, or moreso, it's been a fucking blast and a big part of me was crushed when you moved to Bozeman. I'm sorry, so very very sorry about some things, but anytime you ever need anything that I have to offer, it's yours. I love you and I'm always here.
Lisa Carolyn Enyart - yeah well you can just walk your happy ass over to my room and I'll you how I feel. But remember, you're at the starting line to the rest of your life, ready as you'll ever be. Take a leap and I love you
Daniel and Shannon Hathaway - I really wish I could have been there at your wedding, maybe then I would have remembered it the other day...oops. Like I said I'm an asshole, but what else is new? You two are amazing, and I can't even begin to tell you how much you mean to me. "Here's to you, and here's to me if we should part then fuck this, it ain't worth doin if you two aren't there" <-----great new toast. I love you guys.
Shannon Woodman - One of these days I'm going to kick your ass or get you really drunk for the hell you've put me through. I wouldn't have had it any other way though and I thank you for helping me to be who I am. I love you <----and Chelsea gets an honorable mention here too.....
The Home Depot Crew (Lindsay, Mat, Herb, Olivia, Ben, Kari, Tristen, Jeremiah, Steve, Krystal, Debbie, Tyler, Margie, Cooper, Jaimie, Cassie, and anybody else I might have missed) - Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you, so very very very much for everything, you guys couldn't have made the first part of this year any better it you'd have tried, and I look forward to many many many other adventures in the future....I love you all.
The DTV crew (Niki, Nicole, Kaycee, Tiffany, Dani, Melissa, Nikki, Andrew, Kevin, Karissa, etc etc lol) - I'm so glad I put up with four months of the stupidest company I have ever worked for so that I could have met you all. Four months for the rest of my life....I'm fucked I think. I love you all
Megan Kerzman - I'm sure you think that I forget you and that I don't ever remember you, but you have no idea just how close you always are to my thoughts. I don't need a picture on the wall, or a place in my top friends, or a lunch once a week, or even once a year to know that I love you more than any other dream or dancing moonbeam in my life. You are always close to my heart and you are thought of often. I love you.
Nicholas Joseph Roth - I mean really, who the hell else would put up with us at three in the morning? This is why we have each other. Thanks for all the listening and bitching and moaning and laughing and tasteless jokes and tasteful jokes for that matter. I love you.
Beth Norton - The last few weeks have been pretty glum, but I'm so definitely glad that the random thought of you the other day and bringing you back into my life, even if it is only thru myspace, has made me smile and laugh a little bit, and who else could I say Tickle Hill to, and they'd understand? I love you.
Jon Lupton - Thru all these years, you're still one I can turn too and have you get a laugh out of me...thanks for all the random conversations, and I do mean random...I still think that the Utah convo is one of my favs. Mostly though, thanks for being here, on earth, and I hope you're around for oh so much longer.... I love you.
Jeff Larson - What would the world be like without sloppy ginas and random early morning adventures? And it's not the two months of brown crap between summer and winter that keeps me in Montana, it's people like you and if you leave, well I guess I'd just have to leave too, but F that Cali shit, I'm going east. I love you.
And here's to everyone else that I am not thinking of right now, but I think about from time to time: Adelle Christensen, Jackson Dooley, Jeff Laslovich, Alexis Monaco, Kristen Kahm, Eric Wood, Timmy Perez, Adriann Kenney, __________<--insert your name here. I love you all too....
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