To feeling infinite....

"So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be..."  I'm having a Perks kinda night because I just had an odd experience.  I have been wrestling with the idea of moving back to Phoenix until January, mainly due to the fact that Missoula hasn't had the impression on me that it used to, until tonight...I was driving home from Denny's and I was feeling a little drab, that's what I do after I leave a friend, makes me wonder if I'll ever see them again...but anyway I was almost home, and I was thinking about Phoenix cuz I talked to Brian today and made sure it was cool and all, and I pretty much had every intention of leaving.  Then I was thinking about the road trips and such that Autumn and I were talking about, and then I thought about Laura, and then the rest of my friends, and then there was the moment, and this has plagued be for a little over ten years now, and I am a firm believer in signs and crap like that.  The perfect song came on the radio, yes I was listening to the radio, which I never do...but this song, and most of my good friends know what it is cuz it's my favorite, and if I've ever made you a cd and I give a crap about you, it's always the last song on the cd...and if I haven't, well I still care...really!!  So this song came on and I just felt infinite, like everything was at peace, and I'd come to realize that I am exactly where I am supposed to be for now...so I drove past my street and finished the song...sometimes it just takes the perfect drive, with the perfect song to feel infinite...so that is how I have come to the conclusion that I will not go back to phoenix, at least not for a couple of weeks and that will be to get my truck and belongings.  YAY roadtrip!!!!